i just don't know what to do with myself.

in order to run in the park on sundays i must a) catch the subway southbound (:16s) to catch b) the westbound R6 train to east falls which comes once per hour (:36s) to the north broad station.

i slept through the 7:16/7:36 opportunity.

i missed the the 8:16/8:36 by mere seconds since i can never leave the apartment without forgetting something. today it was the watch.

so the Day of Glorious Running is now in shambles as i had hoped to be back by 10:30.

maybe it's better. maybe i would have gotten mugged or broken my leg. maybe i'm just going to sit here pissed off at myself.

it's lovely outside. perfect conditions. bollocks.

kickoff's at 8:15 tonight and i've got two full days of rather boring, pointless material to study this afternoon.

what to do, what to do...

do i run around the cesspool (a.k.a north philly) to save time, sacrificing any chance at pretty scenery?

or do i go back to the park now and tell biochem to sit tight for another three hours?

or do i head to the track next door to do intervals?

or do i simply forego running today altogether and go to the park tomorrow after doctoring?

do i skip out of doctoring early?

why this maddening indecisiveness?